They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera | ARC Review

Title: They Both Die at the End

Author: Adam Silvera

Publisher: HarperCollins

Genre: Young Adult Contemporary

Release: September 5, 2017

Pages: 384

Format: eARC

On September 5, a little after midnight, Death-Cast calls Mateo Torrez and Rufus Emeterio to give them some bad news: They’re going to die today. Mateo and Rufus are total strangers, but, for different reasons, they’re both looking to make a new friend on their End Day. The good news: There’s an app for that. It’s called the Last Friend, and through it, Rufus and Mateo are about to meet up for one last great adventure and to live a lifetime in a single day. 

TRIGGER WARNINGS: death, suicidal thought/suicide

They Both Die at the End literally tells you the ending to the story yet you can’t help holding out hope that it’s somehow a trick or a lie. I’d be lying to myself if I didn’t say this was me the entire story, but still crying at every turn anyway. The book centers around two boys who receive the alert that they will be dying within the next 24 hours. No one knows how or when, but no one can stop it either. While this can be a blessing for some people to say their final goodbyes and get things in order, how absolutely terrifying at the same time, right?

Rufus Emeterio and Mateo Torrez couldn’t be more different at the start of the novel. Rufus is almost fearless and seems ready to take his exit, while Mateo has been sheltered and led his life being afraid to take chances. When the two meet on the Last Friend app (an app bringing people together to spend their “End Days” with) a truly beautiful friendship blossoms. Rufus pushes live and take chances. Mateo helps Rufus make amends and become a person he’s finally happy with being. Both these boys are so complex you feel like you really know them. Seeing their connection become what it does was really special and organic. I am really happy with the outcome.

The only complaint I have with this book is that I wish it was somehow longer. I got invested with the random stranger POVs and would have liked to see the ending fleshed out a bit more. However, the ending (and last sentence) still gutted me and in a way was perfect. I don’t know how Adam Silvera comes up with these gut-wrenching stories, but he pulls on some major heartstrings. This novel was beautiful and truly makes you realize that you need to live your life to the absolute fullest. No more playing around. Take risks. Do something you’ve already been afraid to do. Life is way too short.

An eARC was provided in an exchange for review by the publisher and eldeweiss. All opinions are my own.

History is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera



Title: History is All You Left Me

Author: Adam Silvera

Publisher: SoHo Teen

Released: January 17, 2017

Genre: Young Adult Contemporary, LGBT+

Pages: 320

Format: Hardcover


When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.


This is the moment of the end. This is where we give up hope on reversing time, where we abandon finding a cure to death, where we live in this Theo-less universe, where we say goodbye.

Adam Silvera is a special. There is nothing that makes me feel more than an Adam Silvera novel. I don’t know how he does it, but his writing and storytelling are truly captivating. I haven’t cried this much while reading a novel in a long time. This was special. This was raw. This was truly beautiful.

History is All You Left Me is told in two timelines, history and today. Our story follows four boys: Griffin, Theo, Wade, and Jackson. All dealing with love and loss and grief. Griffin is struggling with the death of his first love of his life, Theo, all while dealing with his own secrets and compulsions that have seemed to worsen. Griffin is suffering. He’s broken and walking through like “like a zombie” so to speak. When he meets Theo’s boyfriend, Jackson, at Theo’s funeral an unlikely bond begins to blossom. Griffin and Jackson lean on each other because they are the only two that know, and understand, what the other is really feeling and going through.

Griffin is a special character. I felt for him. Not only was he still heartbroken over his and Theo’s breakup, but he was struggling with Theo’s death. Theo was the love of Griffin’s life and when you see their story unfold in “history” I was truly heartbroken. I was sad for these two lovely guys who felt like they were endgame.

What really pulled me into the story was how real it felt. I didn’t for once think I was just reading a book about someone going through a loss. I felt it. History feels personal, it’s very human and real. When book can make me tear up on page one, you know it’s special. By the end, I couldn’t even count how many times this book reduced me to nothing but a puddle of tears!
Griffin’s pain is not only heartbreaking, but so is Jackson’s. So is Wade’s. You feel so much for these boys who are struggling and have no idea what to do or how to deal with what’s been handed to them.

People are complicated puzzles, always trying to piece together a complete picture, but sometimes we get it wrong and sometimes we’re left unfinished. Sometimes that’s for the best.

If you’re ready for a very emotional, but enlightening read, you need to pick up History immediately. I cannot recommend it enough. It’s beautiful and unforgettable.


I am not going to say too much because this review will turn into a blubbering mess filled with nothing but crying gifs and yelling to read this book. Seriously.



It Ends With Us by Colleen Hoover


Title: It Ends with Us
Author: Colleen Hoover
Publisher: Atria Books
Released: August 2, 2016
Genre: New Adult Contemporary Romance
Format: Paperback
Pages: 384

First initial reaction upon finishing It Ends with Us by Colleen Hoover:


But what else did I expect when it comes to Colleen?



Lily hasn’t always had it easy, but that’s never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She’s come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up—she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true.

Ryle is assertive, stubborn, maybe even a little arrogant. He’s also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily. And the way he looks in scrubs certainly doesn’t hurt. Lily can’t get him out of her head. But Ryle’s complete aversion to relationships is disturbing. Even as Lily finds herself becoming the exception to his “no dating” rule, she can’t help but wonder what made him that way in the first place.

As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan—her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened.


“All humans make mistakes. What determines a person’s character aren’t the mistakes we make. It’s how we take those mistakes and turn them into lessons rather than excuses.”

In all honesty, I can see the maturity and intensity that Colleen brought to us in her writing with this novel. This book is so important and everyone needs to read it right now. It has such a strong theme that gave me so much to think about! I personally have never been in this situation, but everything about this book made me feel like I was feeling everything in the pit of my own stomach. I felt like this was happening to me. My heart was breaking and I was shaking because I was so scared and just…sad.

I wish cutting my feelings off for the person who hurt me was as easy as I used to think it would be. Preventing your heart from forgiving someone you love is actually a hell of a lot harder than simply forgiving them.

I am not going to talk too much about the characters or the story because I really encourage everyone to read this going in blind and not knowing a single thing. But it is worth it. Colleen not only brings us a heartwarming and heartbreaking story, but she shows gives readers a lot to think about. There are some tough themes in this novel and it makes it that much more important to read.

I am going to say that I loved Lily. She had so much drive, she was independent and strong and inspiring. She did what she felt was right no matter what even if it was scary. I admire her strength. I think a lot of people will. How she handled her situations with our two boys was smart. This book is very much about her empowering journey and even though I rooted for her from the very beginning, I do have to admit I was heartbroken by the outcome. I am very much a hopeless romantic and would have loved a better end, but I am very much #TeamLily! I found myself literally screaming “YES YOU GO GIRL” a few times!

Yes, I fell in love with Ryle the same way Lily did. Yes, I fell in love with Atlas the same way that Lily did. I couldn’t help it. I am a hopeless romantic! 

This story was so raw, bold, powerful, and HEAVY. 

Thank you, Colleen.

Thank you for being brave and bold.



Now Go! 


until next time,


Morning Star (Red Rising #3) by Pierce Brown


Publisher: Del Rey
Released: February 9, 2016
Series: Red Rising #3
Genre: Science Fiction Dystopian, Young Adult/Adult Fiction crossover
Pages: 524

synopsisDarrow would have lived in peace, but his enemies brought him war. The Gold overlords demanded his obedience, hanged his wife, and enslaved his people. But Darrow is determined to fight back. Risking everything to transform himself and breach Gold society, Darrow has battled to survive the cutthroat rivalries that breed Society’s mightiest warriors, climbed the ranks, and waited patiently to unleash the revolution that will tear the hierarchy apart from within.
Finally, the time has come.
But devotion to honor and hunger for vengeance run deep on both sides. Darrow and his comrades-in-arms face powerful enemies without scruple or mercy. Among them are some Darrow once considered friends. To win, Darrow will need to inspire those shackled in darkness to break their chains, unmake the world their cruel masters have built, and claim a destiny too long denied – and too glorious to surrender.

myreviewRed Rising has quickly become one of my favorite series of all time and Morning Star? One of my favorite finales. Even though Pierce Brown is now writing a new trilogy after the events of Morning Star. Yay. This novel had everything I wanted in a finale. It had a load of action. political intrigue, character development, and just so much heartfelt fangirl moments.

Morning Star takes place one year after the events of Golden Son and let me tell you, it was satisfying.  Darrow is a broken man. After experiencing torture at the hands of The Jackal for a year, he is losing his will to fight and it is heartbreaking. Everything that happens afterwards is so bittersweet. His relationship with Sevro, Mustang, Victra, and all the rest of The Howlers as he reclaims the fight.

The writing as always was impeccable. The action sequences were amazing and so vivid. I was constantly clutching my book because I was so scared for all my favorite characters. There was never a dull moment while reading this book and I loved that. It was so nice to see so many people come together to stand with Darrow and his cause. So bittersweet.

Also, I can’t not say that I am so happy my ship finally sailed!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
I was jumping up and down because I have been waiting for this for 3 books and it finally happened. Not only my ship, but my precious baby Sevro too! Sevro is such a delight to read and he brings a comic relief to an otherwise very serious and daunting journey. He has an colorful sense of humor and can annoy everyone, but he never fails in making me laugh. He is without a doubt my favorite character in this trilogy.

The plot was so engaging and brought one of the best endings I have read this year (as a finale). It was so heartbreaking and gives you a rush because you don’t know if everyone is going to make it out alive. To see Darrow and Mustang and even Cassius face off finally and bring out the outcome for the world to come after them? Such beauty. I am blown away by the events that transpired. Brown did an amazing job wrapping up this rebellion and I am so excited to see what’s in store next for our beloved characters.

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t shed some serious tears. Even for our villain. I am so attached to these characters and this world that it will forever have an imprint on my heart. ❤


If you haven’t read this trilogy, what are you even doing with your life? pick it up now! It’s so good and wonderful!
And if you have, what did you think? Let’s fangirl together! xoo

 until next time,

The Winner’s Kiss (The Winner’s Trilogy #3) by Marie Rutkoski


War has begun. Arin is in the thick of it with untrustworthy new allies and the empire as his enemy. Though he has convinced himself that he no longer loves Kestrel, Arin hasn’t forgotten her, or how she became exactly the kind of person he has always despised. She cared more for the empire than she did for the lives of innocent people—and certainly more than she did for him.

At least, that’s what he thinks.

In the frozen north, Kestrel is a prisoner in a brutal work camp. As she searches desperately for a way to escape, she wishes Arin could know what she sacrificed for him. She wishes she could make the empire pay for what they’ve done to her.

But no one gets what they want just by wishing.

As the war intensifies, both Kestrel and Arin discover that the world is changing. The East is pitted against the West, and they are caught in between. With so much to lose, can anybody really win?

I am blown away once again by this series. I applaud Marie Rutkoski for creating this beautiful world and story with the most mesmerizing cast of characters. I will tuck them away in my heart forever as we close the book on this trilogy. I am so sad to say goodbye!

The Winner’s Kiss couldn’t have been a more perfect finale! It had everything I wanted and more. It was action-packed, character driven, fast paced, insightful, and breathtaking. I couldn’t get enough. The Winner’s trilogy tells a different kind of story. While much of the trilogy is centered around the political aspects of the journey, it also has one of my favorite love stories between our two characters, Kestrel and Arin. If you have read any of the previous two books you’ll know why their relationship is one of my favorites and why Kestrel is one of my favorite characters of all time.

“You don’t need to be gifted with a blade. You are your own best weapon.”

Kestrel is intelligent. Her best weapon is her mind. She’s a strategist and doesn’t need to be physically able to take down those to oppose her. She uses her mind to manipulate them to get what she wants. In a world where YA heroines are always chopping at the bit to take down whoever stands in their way with their bodies it’s refreshing to see someone, who might not even know how to shoot a gun or slash a sword, use her mind as her best weapon.

Arin is another favorite character of all time. His loyalty and love speaks volumes. I don’t know how much times I just wanted to give him a hug because my heart ached for him! He is so haunted and it breaks my heart. I am so glad he found friendship with Roshar because he needs someone in his corner, besides Kestrel, backing him up and just loving him. Besides Roshar is a riot and I love him and little Arin 😉


While this book didn’t hold as much politics as the other previous books did it was action-packed and exciting. The last quarter of the book is so nerve-wrecking and I was certain something wrong was bound to happen that I was too scared to read. I didn’t want to see anything happen to these character that I have grown to love so much.

I don’t want to say too much because you will just have to read it and find out for yourself, but if you loved the previous two books you won’t be disappointed. It was a wild ride and ended so bittersweet. I couldn’t be happier its closing



The Winner’s Curse (The Winner’s #1)

The WInner’s Crime (The Winner’s #2)

Until next time,
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